thanks for the memories..

wink2...i suda tukar layout..gi mana? ada wow! tak?? hehehee..org len dok cbuk dh study utk next paper, cik sara cbuk plak salin baju blog dy..ape kess? ntahhlaa pe kes nyee..gedik kott..hehh

now, moving on to d real post..hurmm..i was in a search for a picture sumwhere in my folder n i found these pictures.. mmula cm tade feel pape..tp pstu sayu plak asenye ttba..to those who knew bout d conflict u might get d idea..but for those who don't, lets play a guessing game here..hehee..

yesterday, u wud be sum1 i ran to when i have problems or any other 'secrets' dat we usually share together...but today..

yesterday, we share stories, funny stories, love stories, gossiping, just about anything, but today...

yesterday, u were the only friend that had ever received a yellow rose from me as a sign of eternal friendship, but today..

yesterday, i saw u throw away that dry flower..i was mad, but i wasn't dat mad..but today..

yesterday, i smile everytime i look at my make-up pouch since it's from u, but today..

yesterday, u were listed in my 8pax, in my activ10..but today...

yesterday, i enjoyed teasing u, have a good laugh, since ur rare, ur special attitude, give me a good laugh, but today..

yesterday, i..we always crave for a picture of the 7 of us n treasure it so much since it wud be so hard to be able to take that picture..but today..

yesterday, we always have this unsatisfactory among each other but we keep it close to ourselves because we're so afraid to break the special bonding between d 7 of us, but today...

yesterday, i enjoyed seeing u diligently cooking in the kitchen even though u rarely offer us the food unless we asked for it, but today...

yesterday, i never worried of not finishing my food since i wud happily share some wid u, but today..

yesterday, i smile viewing all these pictures since the 6 of u have always been my friends, n secretly, like sisters to me..sisters, dat i will tolerate as long as i could...~ but today...

today, there's no more 7 but only 6..

today, i sat in front of u, behind u but i dun even look at u..we're like strangers

today, i hate those words 'friendship never ends', 'love is for a moment but friends are forever'..because i feel those words are betraying me..hurting me deep down inside..

today, i'm juz a kid wid a big ego..i wud never come to put down the fire dat u started by apologizing cause i'm still putting all the blame on u for not being brave enough to face ur wrongdoings..

but today, particularly today, i miss you..i miss those yesterdays with u..

i really do..

Lots of ♥♥♥, me~

meow2~~: heee..geli plaks kn romantik2 nih, kasik cket..hee but really, i mean it every word written here..hope things will get better btween us. i hope she-who-must-not-be-named will read dis..but i dun wanna tell her..me n my big ego..~~ aihh..

♫ It's too big, it's too wide...It's too strong, it won't fit..It's too much, it's too tough..I talk like this 'cause I can back it up..I got a big ego, such a huge ego..~~ ego, beyonce knowles..

kesah si minah arab..ouchhh!

hye all..just a bit update..yesterday i went to times square to watch 'the proposal' with adah n syikin..glad dat finally im able to watch dat movie after a few delayed n wrong timing of the ticket. nway if u may notice there are lots of Arabic tourists in time square right? read the 'nice' but sarcastic conversation that we have below..here goes..

cik arab : excuse me, can i ask you about something..

syikin : ouhh...sure2, no problem..(ni mesti nk tnya tempat ke kedai mn2 ke..buleh je nk jwb nih)

minah arab : Malaysia is a very nice country..i love it so much n been thinking to come here again next year..very good and the people are very nice.. (kami bertiga sudah kembang kempis ye disitu..hahahs)..and you dressed well, very pretty (msa ni dye tunjuk kat tudung dye la, maybe dye maksudkn pakai tudung..)

syikin, adah n i: still listening attentively sambil tunggu soklan menda minah arab ni nk tnya sbenarnye....

minah arab continues : but i dun understand, why some people cover their hair but show their butt? why wear clothes that shows their body? (kami sdikit ternganga dgr pertnyaan itu..apekahhhh????) they go to surau to pray yet they're wearing something like that. is there any kind of message that they wanna convey? i mean i also wear jeans back in my country but i make sure its under my knees and big enough..not show my body..hrrmmm we're muslims and i just do what Rasulullah will do, tabligh right? we pass around good messages..so you may pass around to your friends and the others..

syikin, adah n i: sedikit terkulat2 disitu..

seksi kah kami???? tgk balik bju yg dipakai..huhu okkayh maybe not as complete as her, with her jubah that clearly big and covers everything but i think to compare us with the oootheerrrrr people in time square at that moment, we can be considered as dressing decently..OMG, i know she's doing something nice, nk tegur kn, i can accept it its just that her words really make us think deeply n surely change the 'girls day out' mood for a while..why among all the ppl in dat big mall she chose us??

memula tu mmg sakit hti gakla...sbb msa tu ktorg yg bru kluar dri surau, bru lepas solat, kiranye dye tegur ktorg secara halus la kn..tp klau nk ckp sal org arab ni, mmgla diorg berjubah semua, tp kadang2 tu ade jek yg kuku tu buh pengilat kuku kn..mane sah wudu' camtu..then, klau yg free hair plak seksi nyeeee..kalah org2 Malaysia sndiri..then bila fikir2 balik, positive balik, rasional balik, who are we to judge people, she's doing smthing right..'amar ma'aruf nahi munkar..'

so, to do the honour,all girls! note this! please wear decently, we're muslim, for me its quite a humiliation to hear tourists asking smthing like that. luckily she didnt expect any answer for if she did, im speechless.. maybe that's just the way things here, in KL some more, u wear tudung but u show your butt, baju tu pendek kn, tryla pakai yg labuh2 cket..u wear tudung, but u show ur body..tryla pakai yg tak ketat sgt..yang tak ikut body sgt..im not saying that i dressed perfectly all this while, just as a reminder to myself and to all the girls out there..tak malu ke org ckp camtu pasal kite? sy malu...sgttt malu...serious..lepas kejadian tu, klau terjumpe perempuan arab yg berjubah sakan tu rsa nk lari je, segan klau jumpe perempuan yg tegur ktorg tu lagi...huhuhu



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forget about that..out of topic jap...thanks vimala utk brooch yg sgttt chantek..terharu tak when an Indian friend being so sensitive..give u smthing to wear for Hari Raya?? seriously, im touched. despite of all what ppl have been saying n what me myself felt for all this while, i feel appreciated..she's a veeery nice friend..no matter what perception she may get..everyone has weaknesses, i always hope people accept mine just the way i accepted others' weaknesses..hrmmmm..ntahla..kdg2 prasaan ni kn, susah nk jngka..smtimes we like smtimes we dun..smtimes we want it to be different but things are the other way round...huuu..ape2 pn..thanx vim! nk bgi ape ek kt dye nti..ermmmm sari boleh tak?

with doreen tan, a performer in KLPAC n vimala..

nota kaki: tak sabar nk balik kg lusa....~!

teman2ku terbang pulang...~

Assalamualaikum w.b.t...hye all..so hows ur weekend turns out to be? mine? hrmm a bit boring n sloppy n i dunno what..hehe..anyway dun mind laa..last weekend im having fun..so much fun that i tink just to make it equal im 'dead' of boredom dis week..huhu..wokep..forget bout this week, for a while..memula tu g gathering blog yg best tu kn..then, last week my beloved azicka came back from india..~yeay! and last minute plan, akhirnye ku bertemu jugak meenachee sorg ini..makin kurus tgk dye..huhu tak ckop mkan kah kmoo syg ku di india itu?? cun kn mmber cik sara ni? dh 2 kali org merisik n skang pn brderet org nk ngorat dye..wow..u terhangat di pasaran lah lalink!! tp maintain single..i saspek u..eh..respek u lah..


haha..teringat azicka crite satu menda, msa tu diorg nk jwb exam for the first time, then lecturer bgi lah dye kertas kosong ngatkn to write the answers la kn..then suddenly the invigilator started to read aloud the question..know what, soalan kena salin sndiri...budak2 medic tp nk jwb exam kna salin soalan sndiri..aizzz pelik sungguh..takkn le tade mesin fotostat ek kat india??

nway, msa tu dtg ngan asha skali..wpun semlmnye bru pas jupe dye kt jj wangsa maju..jupe lgi kat KLCC tu..tp takpelaa..best~! mmg girls day out laa..she's very happening..even though we may lost contact for months, coz masing2 bz ngan course masing2, asal jupe mesti riuh sekampung..she called me cumi..nk taw knape..tnya dye..then dye bgi nma kt azicka ming2..haha..minah sorg ni kn shuke hati dye je bgi nma kt org soo, ktorg pn bgi nma kt dye..tora! mcm mainan dlm kotak zmn kecik2 dlu...tooorraaa dtg lagi! ehe..yela..asal tora dtg jek, mesti cumi gelak tak berenti..seswai sgttt nma tu utk kmoo~
ktorg mkn..n borak2..then azicka bgi sy a bracelet from india kaler biru pekat..terlupa nk snappy2 picture plak..ape2 pn thanx ming2! sy shuke...ming2 kejap je balik Malaysia tp Alhamdulillah sempat juge dye luahkn msa nk jupe ktorg yg dok kat Malaysia ni kn..nway, tora pn bru bitaw maybe next year dye nk g UK..twinning program 1st batch anjuran UPM..ouuuhhh!! why all my bestfriends have to be faaaaarrrr away from me?? in a way, sgtt sedeyh..asha! klau p UK ti, u bwk balik souvenir mahal2 utk i..klau tak, putus sahabat..(hehe..bile lgi nk kikis bestfriend sndiri..kn asha kn..)

that was last week..then last friday, jihah, my other bestfriend came back from Republic of Czech..bru abes 1st year, n their course is 6 years..woahh..lame kn nk jdi doctor..dhla diorg actually wat master(master by the age of 26..sonoknyeee..) tp malangnye, tak approve kt Malaysia, dikira still dgree..huhu ruginyee..bnyak la borak ngan jihah..msa tgh mkn tu she said klau kat sna dye mkn, klau convert duit malaysia, 40 hengget sepinggan..haiyyooo..then, elaun yg dye dpt 4000 sebulan..wahhh (sedang berangn ape nk bwat klau dpt 4000 sebulan...) candid2 gmbar jihah..~!
pas mkn tu ktorg jln2..masuk kat kedai yg ade jual bear pink ni..saje usha2 hrga..usha2 ade lgi stok ke tak..maklumlah dh jnji kt sum1 nk bgi bear tu kn..so to dat sum1, take note..and blajar rajin2 ekk..then terjumpa handbag yg sgt comel di mata ku..huhu..my handbag satu zip dh rosak, satu g koyak..dua tu leh tahan mahal plak tu..(ganas nye sy?) than yg ade skang plak dh sgt oldies mcm beli 10 thun yg lalu..(yg ni murah jek, 10 hengget kott)..so......taraaaaa...~! shuke...
owh ye...jihah bgi sy necklace..chanteeekkk sgt..n d pendant is an original crystal..(tulis kat kotak dye camtu) waahhh sgttt terharu..klau sepinggan nasik pn 40 hengget, bapela plak hrga seutas rantai dgn crystal as the pendant..Gosh! im touched..rsa tak padan plak dgn present yg sy belikn utk jihah..huhuhu...jihah..qilah sayyang kmoo..~!!
wpun most of my bestfrineds are far away from me..so touched when i know that they still remmber me..to azicka@ming ming, asha@tora...and to jihah..bestest of luck in everything u do..pndai2 jga diri kat negara org..n jgn lupa kat cik sara okkayh..love u all..muahhhxx!

a review vs a reply..~

Assalamualaikum semua..the weekend is here, hope everyone will have a splendid weekend..okkay.last nite i watched Harry Potter n the half blood prince..despite of all the chaotic last minute change of plan, berjaya gak tiba ke Leisure Mall n masuk wayang tepat kol 9..so nk bgi review cketla..ermm rating? 3 n half only out of 5..i think transformers is much2 better la..tgk sekali cam nk pi tgk lgi kn..tp Harry Potter ni tak ase camtu pn..nevertheless, as a whole, definitely Half-Blood Prince is much2 better compared to the Order of the Phoenix..but the pace is quite slow n the director adapted the movie, d part where all the fight between the aurors n the death eaters were gone..i think dats a signifant part to be left out..n the death of Albus Dumbledore, hrmm not dat dramatic as in the novel..Harry was supposed to be stupified by Dumbledore himself, stopping him from helping Dumbledore from being killed..but in the movie, he was like a blurry boy sitting under the tower watching Dumbledore died..that's so not like a brave, chivalrious, a Gryffindor Harry..i cried like hell reading the novel but im just sad watching the movie..but whatever it is i still enjoy the movie..n i did cry a bit in the last part..huhu..can't wait to see the next sequel this coming November..but they said they will divide Deathly-Hollow into 2 parts means 2 more Harry Potter sequel to watch..yeay! hope this time not too much adaptation from the novel..~~


okkay..switch mode plak ek..once i have a bestfriend, whom is veeery dear to me..then, today she told me she had a blog, i open it, i read it n there's an entry dedicated for me..klik SINI..a poem kinda thing, so..a reply for that i suppose..~~

Ain
i love u too..more than words can say..
u've been around me in sadness and in pain..
in despair and in vain..

Ain..
even if im out of reach, u'll always in my mind..
i never forget u, u're d bestfriend of mine..
don't worry, all the memories remain..
what we've been through, can never be replace by anyone
u're the keeper of my deepest and darkest secret
u're so special to me in ur own way..

Ain..
i'm so sorry if i hurt u..
trust me i didn't mean too..
im not mad at u, seriously..
im mad at myself!
im mad at myself cause i fail to forget everything that had happen..
im mad at myself for what i'd done, now i had to pay the price
im mad at myself for being so develish to betray my own bestfriend
im mad at myself because i cannot trust u dat u'll never betray me
im mad at myself, thinking u wud do the same thing as i did when u're not
im mad at myself because i let someone else ruined everything we had
im mad at  myself for cannot bear to pretend anymore 
im mad at myself for ignoring u after all the thing u do to get to me back..

Ain..
thousand apologies n apologies accepted..
what is done cannot be undone
what's left is moving on..
u said u want to be strong like me..
i am stronger because of u..
losing u teach me one thing
like u said, i cannot always depend on u..
u cannot always be wid me..
so i learn..i learn to live without u..
forgetting the fact that we need each other
i need u too..
i really miss u too..
i don't want to lose u too..
u're always my bestfriend too..
be strong my dear..somehow, negatively, positively u've been my strength for a while..
hence, i know you can always be stronger than me..
p/s: i will always love u..~~

♫when i say im sorry, will you believe me? listen to my story, say u wont leave me..when i say im sorry, can u forgive me? when i say i will always be there, will u believe in me?? ~~ Sorry, Chris Daughtry

nota kaki: what goes around always come around..jgnlaaa wat kat org..huuu

Thank You Allah..for the gift of her as my friend..

this entry is specially dedicated to Farhana Mat Latiff..dats d name of the pretty girl with me in the above pic..she's such a petite young lady..care perkenalan kami mmgla sgt unik yew...ikut fenster..dok berbalas komen..dok bersms, dok beremail juga ber'ym'..kamila tiga serangkai..cik sara..eiy n peq..hehe tembak menembak adalah amalan mulia ye ketika itu..~~ we neva met each other yet stil undergo great relationship..maybe cause we value each other very much n we suite each other. 1st time jupe..eiy tido cni..we have pillow talk b4 we went to bed. to be frank, im a bit shock..1) shannnteekk.. 2) vogue nyee eiyyyy.. 3) cute sgt..nk cubit2 je ase..hehe perbualan pn ala2 formal je mase tu..sbb malu kott (geli jek) hehehe..2nd time jupe..manyak gak ar bercerita (ke ngumpat) msa window shopim kat sogo..wpun kejap je...beshh~~ sooo..simple free verse poem for her..

Thank You

Thank you, for all the things
That mean so much to me--
For concern and understanding
You give abundantly.

Thanks for listening with your heart;
For cheering me when I'm blue;
For bringing out the best in me;
And just for being you.

Thanks for in-depth conversation
That stimulates my brain;
For silly times we laugh out loud;
For things I can't explain.

For looking past my flaws and faults;
For all the time you spend;
For all the kind things that you do,
Thank you; thank you eiy..my dearest friend.

this entry is specially dedicated for her cause today is her birthday.. 25th march..happy beday my dearie..hope all your hopes and dreams will come true..even we rarely met, even we far away from each other, even the friendship we hold on to now is still young..i wish to keep u forever..u're one person i never want to lose...hope to still have u as my friend to wish even ur 60th beday..hehe..wpun da tua..da de cucu cicit..ttp nk cayyyang kat eiy..hehehe muahhxx!!
thank you Allah for the gift of her as my friend..

nota kaki: dpt markah kuiz plays n drama n asiment marks esok...hmmmm....bismillahi tawakkaltu alaAllah..huuu~ takowttnyeee...jgn fail sudaaa laa...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIHAH

this entry is specially dedicated to my beloved Najihah Binti Md. Nor..which i'd known her since we were form four, 2004 until present days, i cherish every moment we shared together, i hold dearly every laughter every tears, every secret, every happiness with her..even though now, da continent tear us apart but frankly she's always in my heart..cause she's one friend, one bestfriend that i never wanna lose..
sorry if i'd done anything wrong to u..sorry if sometimes im not there when u need me..im sorry if im not da greatest friend of all..i wish i cud be a better friend~ jihah..qilah sayyyang jihah selalu taw..jaga diri taw kat bumi Prague, Czech tu..klau ade masalah ke ape2 ke..cari qilah kayh my dear..i noe u're bz there, sokkay, i do understand..sbb qilah taw jihah selalu ingt kat qilah..kn kn kn kn...
jihah..selamat menyambut ulang tahun yang ke 21..nyanyi cket..selamat ulang tahun sayang..kini kau bersayap pergilah terbang..lintaslah langit cita2mu..moga nnti kita kan bertemu...~~ tak sabar tggu jihah balik Malaysia..riinduu~

nota kaki: jihah..sorry qilah kidnap pic..hehehe..sgt shuke swan2 tu seme..very da sweet~~

edisi beday party tertunda..~~

last friday nite, we held a party in our small, humble cemara apartment..when all d guests came, my God, seeing them squeezing to fit in was a very sad sight..huhuhu mahap sgt seme kwn2..rumah kami kecik ajje..smpai scene rak kasut roboh pn ade..emm..well da first plan was only a small party wid few invitations but then i dunno how suddenly d plan get bigger..during dat day, n d day b4 we've put our full energy to make d party a success..kemas umah segalasadly dat very evening many ppl said dat dey cudnt come..we're a bit worried 4 there r loads of food n beverages..tears were in my eyes when sum1 said dat she wanna go home dat very nite..uhuk3..terkecil hatiku..ku bwat parti maw beri kamoo mkn..tpi kamoo maw pulang pula..my Gosh! i wish im not too soft-hearted..hmmm tapele..ade stengah benda kte tokley nk ubah..kte cuma buleyh trime bulat2 bujur2 je..maka terima ajjela..hmm luckily, everything went verrryyy well..(smpai pak guard pn sound..ngatkn kat hostel je ktorg kna banned..pasni kat cemara pn kna banned gaklaaa~~) ramai yg dtg..thanx taw korg seme..even though its a humble one, i think i cud say dat it was a successful one..happy3..~~

kodak momentos:-

menu: bihun sup (mama fida n mama tiqah chefnye..sgt sdp), popia (sorry sgt kat sape2 yg tak dpt tu..terhad), sosej, keropok ikan, jajan2 (wpun tesco choice je..huhu) n dadih as desert..air plak blackcurrant n oren..Alhamdulillah seme benda abes..tade lebeyh bnyak, tak mmbazir..kami shuke~~

suasana sekitar majlis..senang hati tgk seme org mkn dgn gembira..sape yg amek sambal kicap cik yana bnyak2 mmg smpai merah2 tinge la kepedasan, tak dapek den nk nolong..

haa..couples in d party~~

fida: 9 feb, cik sara: 22 dis, tiqah: 29 feb..i noe2..mine was so far back in time..seme org sound..nk jugak celebrate..huk3..alaa anggap jela niat nk blanje teman2 tersayyang ye..

sesi rebut merebut kek..pada yg tak dpt tu sorry sgt..btw da cake is delicious..wpun beli kat king's kat tesco....kredit to cik fida n cik tiqah yg memilihnyee~~

presents..!! tak harap pn sebenarnye..g pun dh biasa coz my beday usually fall on holidays..so i rarely celebrate it..yela, nama pn belated beday but still i got smthing dat nite..from haikal..blouse..cantek..thanx haikal..tak lupa gak kat d bebayus yg bgi little rosebud dat'll surely shine cemara afta dis..n to my beloved housmets, thanx for d variety presents i got..shoes, hairclips, handphone pouchbag, hndphone accessori, alarm clock, frame wid sweet friendship verse, brooch yg cantek sgt n brooch paling besar n mahal i've eva own, pooh bear, disc cetak rompak?? hehe..sayyang korang seme sampai bila2..wpun ape terjadi..

bersama acu..~ mekaseyh dtg wpun malu2..

last but not least: a group pic..inilah teman2 sy...thanx sgt2 sbb dtg n thanx a zillion for making dat nite happening n wud be my nite to remmber..~

nota kaki: mocca glacier sbbkn mata ini tak maw lelap..~~ siap satu entry sementara tggu nantuk..hehehe..