my beloved..gone forever n ever

"n as soon as u reach a better place..still i give the whole world to see ur face..it feels like u gone too soon, d hardest thing to do is...say bye bye..~"

raya haji 2005, balik2 solat hri raya, dis cute little fella meowing frantically in an old washing machine under my house..

syukur ngan teh..dua2 comel..kn..

yg atas skali tu itam, anak citeh..tinggal dye je yg ade kt umah tu..then yg 2nd tu, citam, mak citeh, citam pn dh mati..awal thun lepas..n yg puteh tu, citeh tersayang..

citeh n adiknye cireng..skang dua2 da tade..

hrmm...tehhhh...

no more citeh on my study desk..

no more citeh around the house..wandering..finding the most comfortable place to sleep..
no more citeh meowing on my cupboard..to get my attention to get him down from it..

no more citeh on top of our freezer..waiting to be fed..

no more citeh..looking at me with those big bright eyes..

really3..going to miiiiissssss it...~

"i never know i could hurt like this..n everyday life goes on like, i wish i cud talk to u for a while, i wish i cud find a way not to cry..as time goes by.."

my beloved citeh..3 minggu tak balik..balik2 dye sakit, comot sn cni, kurus sgt2, mkn tamo, muntah2 then.......gone forever n ever....tak taw nk ckp ape dh..sgt sedeyhh...