Saturday, January 31

belaja cakap jepun edisi siott tol..lolz~

01. Yang pemarah - KEIJI CACIMAKI

02. Yang suka berjimat - SAYORI SUKAMURA

03. Yang bisu - KIETA TADASORA

04. Yang suka makan nasi - NANACHi KASIBANYA

05. Yang suka layan blues - APO NADIKATO

06. Yang suka belajar - ASHIKO ULANGKAJI

07. Yang kerap bikin kacau - WAKASI HURUHARA

08. Yang sangat kedekut - MATIMATI TAMOKASI

09. Yang suka sangat tidur - ICHIBAN TIDOMATI

10. Yang suka mengintai - HINTAI AKOSUKA

11. Yang tua - TARAGIGI PADANMUKA

12. Yang kena tinggal bini - SUSAHATI BINILARI

13. Yang suka merempit - SAJA CARIMATI

14. Yang Lembab - AYUMI CIPUTBABI

15. Yang suka BERSUMPAH - SAIIFOOL BAUKARI

perkataan ataupun nama yang terdapat di atas tiada kena mengena dengan yang hidup atau yang mati. Kalau ada pun hanya kebetulan sahaja.

nota kaki: kreatif sungguhla shape2 yg buek ni..hihihihi klakor seyyhh.. WASUKA KIKIKIKI..hehe

cinta monyetttt..hehehe


got real bored n fedup dealing wid 'ass'siment..huu so i look thru 'my pictures' folder..then i came across this pic, also taken during the long holiday at the end of last year. old pictures from my school years. heee..n one pic really caught my eye and attention. its da pic below..apo?? monyet2 di tangga?? aiyaa..i noe le cinta monyet tpi homo sapien ye kami. not a believer of Darwin's theory for sure. lolz~ see,last 25th january was his beday..hohoho pokcik is doh tuo! ngee~ he called me, yela maxis bgi call free kn..klu tak, tak pnh hayatnye nk ngecall qilah.emm sembang nye sembang skali dye bitaw daa his plan of getting married next year..waahhh??!! my puppy love partner is getting married n i dun even have a boifren..camno neyh?btw, name mamat ni harith iskandar (hope he aint gonna read dis, im so gonna dead exposing him..but like i care..history is a memory n da sweet ones are long to cherish einh? hee~) da best part is dye org jawa gak so best ar ckp jawa ngan dye. 'ojo ngapusi! tak tuapok ndas se, ngko munyeng yo kapok kapokan!' hahaha..tk fhm? tapela tak perlu fhm..hehe

ktorg 3 thun classmate mase kat mrsm serting, then f4 i transfered to mrsm taiping n he stayed there. being classmates for 3 years, seating behind him in the class,surely we got lots to talk about even we're far by distance. dye BWP (badan wakil pelajar) cam JPP laa..nk kna pilihnraya seme kn. so, everytime ade delivery kad muhibbah mrsm serting-mrsm taiping..surely ade sepucuk surat utk sy..haha..syiokk plak ingt balik kngn2 lame..seme org jelesh sy slalu dpt surat chenta..kikiki..sygnye cant remmber where i put those letters..hu3
dh terbuang kotzz?

so bile sijil result pmr dh kuaw, kna la pi serting nk amek..msa tu jumpe smule..gedik2 la amek gambo berdua tp time tu gak dh dengar rumours dye ni dh ade org len..hee~ cam tak kiza sgt pn sbb seriously msa tu men2 je tade pasaan ngat pn.yela, tgk org len ade bf aku pn nak gaklaa..but seriously no heart feeling..still manage to score my exams laa..alhamdulillah..em, i even met dat girl, amek gmbr same agi..peluk2 agi..yela, is dok kate dye cun sy cute, dye cantek sy comey..mesti ar nk tengok..well i think they'll make a great partner. will she be the wife-to-be?? hee..hope so..pokcik is tamo bitaw..semakin warak dye skang, bru ckp 5 saat he recited a hadith n a riwayat from Quran oredy. wawawa..kamoo dh jdi ustaz harith ke skang?? whateva it is, praying the best for him. :)) kawen jgn lupe jemput!okkay, i lied..actually tak kiza is ade org len coz me pn crushed kat sum1 gak..hehe..we spent lots of time together during kuiz nadwah islamiah..he's a clever boy, 3.9 n above sajje pointer, n masuk kuiz sejarah peringkat kebangsaan, tokoh pelajar lgi wpun very average in figure. i burned the midnight oil juz to make sure my GPA cud beat him or at least in the same level..n i succeed! =) 3.95..dat was my highest achievement from f1 until now. n not proudly to say it was becoz a guy?? hrmmm..nway, he's in ireland now doing his IB (international baccalaurate)..a future doctor..hee, thanx for encouraging me once ago..at least merasa gak aku 3.95 tuh..kantoi english plak, n now im suffering to be an english teacher..such ironi haa..

p/s: pic not so clear coz its picture in a picture.
nota kaki: cinta monyet, cinta pertama, cinta pndang pertma, cinta sejati, cinta smpai ke syurga..hmmm..something to ponder about ek.. waaa but skrg kna cintakn assiment dlu..wokeyh! get back to work cik sara..!! huuu

Friday, January 30

what if i'm a fish..??

tam! tgk ajje okkay..tokley mkn..ikan si gemok tuuu..

well..it was da previous long holiday dat i got dis temporary fish pet 4 a while..my lil bro..
haa..pic of my mom ngan ank kesayangn dye..(bunyik jeles ni..) huhu..wokey..back to da story..he went to our cousin's house in KL so he asked me to take care of his fish for few days..so i said fine...bgi mkn 3 kali sehari kn..4 bijik skali n kaler merah seme..sbb ikan dye tak mkn yg kaler ijau..huu ngengada ikan tu..so one evening dok tgk ikan tu berenang2..cam terdpt ilham plak..so here goes..nk bgi tajuk pe ye...hmmm... 'what if im a fish' laa..

i'm not gliding not slithering
walking? *sigh*

these gills are stopping me

tails and fins keep pushing me forward

but it's not like how i wanted it to be
..and nobody listens..

cause im juz a fish

swim all day in this cold water
that washed away my tears
and drowned my voice...

*sigh again*

nevertheless, what if i'm a fish?

i'll do one thing i'm very best at...
......just go with the flow......

haizzz..since when im such a poetic person?? penangan songs&poetry la ni kotzz..hehe..cket gmbar aksi2 cik itam musyuk..tgk ikan2 nizz..actually i also dunno ikan pe ni..nmpak cam ikan laga tpi bukn..hu ley tahan cute la ikan2 ni..ekor meliuk2 bila berenang..but i think still prefer cats more as pet..lbey cumil..n ley peluk2 geram2..ade respon..hehehe..ikan nk pegang pn geli..respon pn cam terhad je..tak syiok laaa
tam!! nk watpe tu??



what? cud u have one please?? aiyaa..dun even think about it honey! wat la muka keshian camne pun..i tak layan..eittt sepuk kang tam ni!



itam berkata..eiii..geramnye aku tgk ikan2 nisss..hahaha..shian itam!

Friday, January 23

..fill in da blanks for me plezzz...

Here I am...
Paradox personified, a demented girl.
Maybe I'm making the biggest mistake of my life.
But who's perfect?
Certainly not me.
Certainly not anyone.
Sure, I'm still who I was, who I am.
Question is, what do I become?
There are so many blanks left to fill in.
....................

nota kaki: be missed vs missing?? huuu...nk balik doh niiii...jgnla kacau2 jiwa aku..asimen bnyak woo...!

..a nite to remmber..

huhuhu..tonite will be da nite....haha oppss! sorry adah darlink, sengaja!

hmm manyak menda pelik terjadi dn nk jadi mlm ni..

~shud packing my things (ass-siments) yet..we went to Pak Li Kopitiam.tp syiookk woo mkn nasi ayam lemon..

~tables 4 ten ppl n juz 4 of us sitting there, enjoying our food..tggu diorg tak sampe2..muka dh tebal seploh inchi seme org tnya ade org ddk ke tak..ley amek kusi ke tak..ttp wat muka stone..ade..tokley amek..sorry, our frens are on their way..waa! but we had to left coz they cant seem to come...malunye kat mereka..pelanggan2 pak li tuuuu..huu

~edisi dicium teksi..tercium tong sampah..hampir menggelongsor ke bukit..tonite, langgo org plak..ishh ade2 sajje..kalut tros seme..huuu..cam drama gitu..

~cam pempuan2 gila..tnya seme org..berentikn seme motor yg lalu n willing to pay 10 ringgit to ask da motorcyclist to show us where da hell is klinik an-nisa?? ktorg tak biasa kt shah alam ni..

~wanna play heroin yet other heroins arrived to da crime scene first..huaa..there goes da glem lite n da 10 hengget..

~anta cik yana kat Adamson hotel, kg baru..really apologize to Mr. Dahlan coz 'steal' her daughter 4 da nite..pakcik, kami tak bgi pengaruh buruk kat yana..we love her mehh..3 keta taw escott dye nk balik hotel tuu..dijamin selamat ank pokcik..

~lepak kg baru..scanning 4 cute guys?? uu adah n atiq! cik sara dak baik..mne bwat..hehe..emm skandalusss...teddi bear ku??hua3 maw malu2 kah?sorok2 kah?

~species yg hampir mmbuatku muntoh ijau pucuk pisang! huhuhu..mrekaa mncemarkn daku! lorong haji taib?jln sultan ismail??tasik perdana? titiwangsa? tasek putrajaya????

~usaha menyegarkn driver..tpi tak berjaya..huk3..teddi bear ku juge tetap! heroinnye..tulun drive kn smpai cemara

~gate cemara tak buka until 5 a.m. tebiatlaa gi 7-E sbb nk tggu kol 5..soh pokcik guard buke awal 5 minit pn tamo..huk3 menci!

~nek umah..very zombie like..bedebush!! dreamland.....diorg laa..cik sara? hee..check reta2 baru kuu..tiramisu coffee ice blended masih mmberi kesan..

wuuiisshhh what a long, unique, breath taking, experienced, sweet nite..huu tonite wud definitely be da risen issue during our reunion years later...hahaha

nota kaki: rs cam tamo tidoq tros coz dah jnji nk support hekal syarahan esok pgi..huuu tak thula mmpu bgun ke tak klau tido skang..?? karl! Good Luck! we support u..harap2 ktorg seme mmpu bgun esok..trust me..everybody is soo zombie-like..wateva it is..doa kami sentiasa bersammu sohabat..moga beroleh kejayaan...aminnn..

ti bile dh dpt gmbar bru upload balik kay...

Wednesday, January 21

my lessons of heartbreak


well i read dis book during da long break last year..Lessons in Heartbreak..*sigh* its a bored book yet still finish it..well i got nothing else to do..n it turns out to be quite a thoughtful book. Suzie, involved in with a married guy..Annabella loses her husband at da age of 50 in da hand of her own widow besfren..wah! such perfect story for a single girl like me?? yeah! always pick out stupid ones..so..after finish reading dat book..i thought of...my lessons of heartbreak.....

~neva involved wid ur besfren's guy..jelas nyata dn terang dat guy is a fraud..casanova n a moron..huu n u can be a moron too to even think about choosing bf VS bff..Gosh! dats definitely zaman jahiliyah ku..

~neva get involved wid a medic student..u'll be his 'guinea pig' for him to experiment evrythg..n evrythg else seems perfect phisically but u..n u'll be stupid to juz obey him to prove dat im-a-perfect-gf-in-a-different-way..n u'll be sick playing dumb to plez him juz bcoz he got all da facts in his head..n u'll be tired of listening to him all da time, to his stress his problem..juz bcoz he's da only person in da world dat will be a doctor??? fuhh! i really hate dis guy still..do i? hahaha..i think so..

~neva get involved wid a 'pretty charming' boy..u'll think u're da ugly duckling dat found his prince charming n fairy tale life is juz damn stupid! dis is reality bebeh!

well..read a blog yesterday..n kyox 'planting love' poem..n i do have a thought on their input..why we need love?nk ikut kwn ke?trend ke?malu ke single?or..kerana Allah..berapa lama nk be in love?seminggu?sebulan?testing2 kn..smpai abes blajar? or cinta smpai akhirat..modal pe bercinta?sms?air liur dok karang ayat2 jiwang ke?brabes duit?huu..guna akal la..jgn ikutkn hati..whats meant to be will always find a way..simpanlah dlu pahala jihad mencintai seseorg tpi senyap krana obstacle2 yg ade..(cik sara ade ke admire shape2?? hmmm..ade kot tpi wat bodo jela dulu..hehe) kna blaja..kna pk future bgi kukuh dlu ekonomi..family first..prioritize whats more vital..rileks sudehh..pe?bercinta nk kumpul pengalamn??*sigh again*..cukop dh kot rsanye ngan makhluk2 yg once were my important ppl n then betrayed me..n i do obsereve other couples..haa..no thank u..not now kot..n as i say..whats meant to be will always find its way..insyaAllah..ape2 pn..bak kate nabel..lu pikir la sndiri ekh..

haa..selingan cket..rindu kucim2 ku..tak sabo nk balik raya cina ney...tam! tulun angkat fon tu..! hehe wat bodo je ekh..cesss...
citeh! my darlink..hehehe accompany or disturbing me wid ma books..wat muka sedey..maw mintak mknlah tuuu..

Tuesday, January 20

..klpac..

ermm last Sunday i was in KLpac (Kuala Lumpur Performing Art Center). there's an open day where there's a lot of workshop..on how to act, how to write a playscript, how to read ur lines, dancing performance etc..lots of activities dat shud benefit ppl who're interested in performing in drama or ppl dats having plays n drama n song n poetry as one of da components...(kami lah tu..dak2 TESL..by week 13 all will turn up to be a pro on stage or a clown on stage??lolz~)huu frankly speaking, im not dat good on stage..huu dat talent just not innate in me..things dat i got to brush up or shall i say i have to? huu.. a teacher is always a performer in front of the pupils..huu..wateva..soo..here are few pics..

klpac virgin?? hmm after dat day like emma said..not anymore..hee..
jom nek beskal dlm klpac..hehehe antara props which they had n will still used in performing..adah nek pe tuuu??


cik sara n mr.naqib..he's hekal's housmate..neva talk to him b4..n i think i didnt talk to him also on dat day..n suddenly he payungkn me in da Sashin studio..while waiting for da free photo shoot session..funny2..note: tade skandal..sy still n akan single smpai grad yeh..harap maklum..haha

haa..dis one tape nk skandal..hee 'juz married' foto kate karl dlm blognye kn..so miss adah, dun blame me..hehehehe i like dis pic laa..look so sweet u both..hee we can dressed up using da costumes n a professional photographer (i think)..snap our pic..n we can have a copy for free..=)
me and adah..da best pic of me n her..sgt shuke gmbr ni..heeeee thanx karl..tpi bak kate komen mdm ros.."huh! sooo fake!" aiyaaa..mdm ros kijam..huhuhu
nice pose naqib n coki..nice photo director karl..hehehe..


kat umah kg la kononnye nih..hehehe but it's actually a japanese built house..n there're lots of koi fish there..very big n for sure very expensive..i wudnt even think to have one..hahaha no thank u..prefer catszzz more than fishhhh..hehehe

HDW haaa...fida owh fida..

dis picture was yesterday..but rite now we juz came back from HUKM..as usual..hahaha melawat fida setiap hri adlah kewajipn kami even juz 4 a while..quote from cott 'sape lgi nk gembirakn fida klau bukan kite ni..' hmm kinda guilty i didnt visit fida on saturday when i came home from a wedding in Bangi..*sigh* so sorry fida..i juz feel so weak dat day..seriously, neraly fainted in da ktm..luckily tak wat 'scene' tgh2 org ramai tu kn..balik2 sapu minyak mmg tros tidoq tak sedar ape..a 'scene' happening in da house also i dunno..
da camera was on top of a polistyrine cup n we set da timer..hee yelah takkn nk panggil nurse plak tulun amekkn gambo kn..what more fida suppose to have only 2 visitors at a time..but..huh..like we care! selagi tak kna halau, melepeklah kami beramai2 kat katil fida tersayam..hahaha..emm fida looks a bit healthier since yesterday..not so weak anymore..hope she can discharge as fast as she can n go back home 4 CNY..note, after dat we wont have any long holidays till da exam..pity her if she dun get da chance nk balik kg..evrybody, pray for my fren here okkay..

nota kaki: apsal la UM tak bgi cuti bulan 3 tuh?? haiizzz dhla sem ini membunuhku dgn asimen ngan test yg bnyak..sabo jele ekh..

i've lost a piece [2]


I've lost a piece and it's almost impairing..
the pain is striking and inside I am grieving..
silently I weep to conceal that I'm hurting..
for how long.. I don't know.. but in sadness I am sinking..


if tomorow neva comes......coz i've lost loved ones in my life who neva knew how much i loved them..so i say to myself to show each day how much certain ppl mean to me..n avoid circumstances where there's no 2nd chance to tell them how i feel...

nota kaki: mlm2 ni gediks la kn nk post merepek2..jiwa kacau la nih kononye..hahaha..hmm better go to sleep now..linguistic tomorrow..mdm ros..mdm ros..mdm ros..mdm roszzz zzz zzZzZZzz...huuu..

Monday, January 19

edisi rantaiku putus..bonda..anakanda mohon ampun..




wokeh..pic above is my necklace..hmm i noe its pretty..lolz~ sgt sweet coz my name is carved on da pendant..got da love pendant early 2006..precisely when i got my SPM result..kinda surprise present from my parents even though i didnt get straight As..huhuhu they muz be expecting dat from me..huu neva mind la..da best part is..ayah yg pkaikn rantai tu..right afta i showed him da exam's slip..sweet ha?syg tade kamera mase tu..no kodak momentos but dat moment still remain 4eva..in ma heart..

huh..maka bersemadilah rantai itu di leherku tak pernah ku tanggalkn sehinggalh suatu ketika di klinik sri permaisuri..it was da radiology session where we need to take off everything including jewelery cause da X-ray wudnt pass thru them..n i dunno how..wahh! da hook of da necklace broken..Gosh! i told my mum n lucky me she didnt pissed off..huu cayyang mak! hee n during my beday dis year she replaced it wid a new one..i thought she only gonna repair da hook, well dat wudnt cost as much as getting me a new one..but she still wanted too..hadiah hari jadi katenye..wahh! nk nanges rasa..even though i prefer da old necklace..u noe, dis one kinda thicker..lgi berat..butttt..look what had happened....!! i've broken it again..tak sampai sebulan pn lagik!! dis time even worse bukan hook dye..rantai tu yg putus..huk3..ni seme sab punye salah! dye yg bergalak ngan saye..hua3..takowt nk ckp kat mak...


my options:
  1. keep it as my secret foreva..(kinda impossible)
  2. acted as though its still there..if mum ask, juz say i left it here..
  3. juz tell her..say sorry..wat sore sedih n hope she didnt get mad
  4. tell her dat i'll replace it using my own allowance (dun like dis idea..hu3)
  5. diam2 aje smpai mak pasan sndiri i didnt wear da necklace..then sengih cam kerang busuk.." mak..rantai tu sara putuskan lgik..."..kna dengarlh lecture free cket pastu
  6. buy a new one using my own money (wah! paling tak shuke idea nih)

nota kaki: huh..dun have da guts to lie to her...u gotta tell her sara..mak..jgn marah kn daku...

Saturday, January 17

girls..beware..guys..inform ur girls..(2)



Menurut laporan Polis seorang wanita telah dirogol oleh 5 lelaki disebuah kelab malam di Singapura pada malam Sabtu sebelum ditinggalkan. Wanita tersebut tidak berupaya untuk mengingati kejadian malam tersebut, namun ujian mengesahkan bahawa beliau telah dirogol berulang kali dengan kesan rohypnol di dalam darahnya dan progestrex, sejenis pil "mencuci" yang kecil. Dadah tersebut kini digunakan oleh perogol-perogol dan kemudian "mencuci" mereka. Progesterex dibekalkan kepada para Doktor haiwan untuk"mencuci"haiwan besar. Khabarnya Progesterex digunakan bersama Rohypnol, sebagai dadah "Dating" dan rogol. Apa yang mereka perlu lakukan ialah menitiskan Rohypnol ke dalam minuman si gadis, mangsa tersebut tidak akan ingat apa-apa pun esok paginya, apa yang berlaku kepadanya sepanjang malam tersebut.Progesterex amat senang larut dalam minuman, akan "mencuci" agar simangsa tidak akan mengandung akibat dari perkosaan tersebut dan siperogol tidak bimbang untuk perlu menjalani ujian air mani dan DNA kemudian.Kesan dadah ini adalah K*E*K*A*L terhadap si mangsa. Prodesterex asalnya adalah untuk memandulkan kuda, Mana-mana wanita yang mengambilnya TIDAK AKAN MENGANDUNG SAMPAI BILA-BILA. Si durjana boleh memperolehi dadah ini boleh mendapatkan dadah ini dari pusat haiwan atau mana-mana universiti, dan ia diramalkan akan digunakan dengan berleluasa di kampus-kampus.Tolong edarkan maklumat ini kepada semua yang anda kenali, terutama teman wanita dan gadis remaja. Berwaspada apabila anda keluar, jangan biarkan minuman anda terbiar tanpa dijaga oleh orang yang anda percayai.
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nota kaki: scary msg ha?got dis msg from fenster..credit to imah..thanx..i posted it here 4 evrybody to read..seriously girls fwen..beware n dun talk to strangers..for muslim girls..amalkn ayatul kursi..insyaAllah..akn sntiasa terpelihara..

Friday, January 16

WE WILL NOT GO DOWN (Song for Gaza)

WE WILL NOT GO DOWN (Song for Gaza)
(Composed by Michael Heart)
Copyright 2009


A blinding flash of white light
Lit up the sky over Gaza tonight
People running for cover
Not knowing whether they’re dead or alive

They came with their tanks and their planes
With ravaging fiery flames
And nothing remains
Just a voice rising up in the smoky haze

We will not go down
In the night, without a fight
You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools
But our spirit will never die
We will not go down
In Gaza tonight

Women and children alike
Murdered and massacred night after night
While the so-called leaders of countries afar
Debated on who’s wrong or right

But their powerless words were in vain
And the bombs fell down like acid rain
But through the tears and the blood and the pain
You can still hear that voice through the smoky haze

We will not go down
In the night, without a fight
You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools
But our spirit will never die
We will not go down
In Gaza tonight



LATEST UPDATE ON MISS FIDA!!

bad newss..our lalink afida has been admitted to HDW..(High Deficiency Ward)..dis ward is kinda half ICU..u noe, doctor come n visit u 3 times a day instead of once when u're in normal ward..take ur blood day n nite for checking..huhu n juz 2 ppl can visit her at a time..n when u do so..u'll see dat she'll be surrounded wid old ppl wid weird machine..da dialisis machine..n she too will hve all sorts of weird-i-neva-seen-b4 medical stuff..huu..n da nurse is owez walking here n there..checking dis n dat..still remmber i've been scolded once wid dr. faiz(still rmmber his name coz he's quite good looking..) bcoz i wanna close da curtain to hve sum privacy wid fida..huu tros tak jdi nk minat doc tu! huhu..ishh mcm2 la..juz got da news juz now..huhuhu yana called her n she can barely talk..huhuhu pity fida..i swear when we visitted her dis afternoon she looks fine! lalink..we'll definitely visit u tomorrow okkay..juz hang in there...huuu

-hapdet on miss afida-







wokeh..yesterday i went to klinik aidura wid my dear beloved afida n adah..when fida asked adah to send her to clinic, i did think to see da doc as well..yeah i've a flu n bad fever but juz have to bear wid it wid no medication..panadol??wargghh! i hate them..bad memories..but going to clinic wud cost me at least RM 50..dats too much to spend even over my own health..huu so i decided not to go in..juz waiting outside wid adah..hmm actually dat day fida did sound 'different'..different as if she needs more than klinik aidura..if previously it was because of her stress but dis time i dun think so..actually a fren had coughed in front of us both the other day..dats why i got dis flu n fever..fida as well..we positively think, dis time dat triggers her asthma..N NOT BECAUSE STRESS..hehe...need to stress on dat..even our tutor, Mr.Chang thought she's stress..she's quite happy lately..talking bout her life..her holidays, updating da cohort's blog n also helping me wid my blog..no miss-stress-afida..yet..huhuhu..mesti dye stress punye nti time kije melonggok nk kna anta..huuuu but itu crite kemudianlaa..ni cerita skrg..Dr.Aidura did say she wanna refer her to HUKM right away but fida refused..then she changed her mind n went to HUKM..huh..we've been attending HUKM since foundation years for our beloved afida..she even took her foundation's exam in ward..huhuhu..n everytime she said she wanna go to HUKM to take her nab (nabulizer..a medicine to treat asthma) she'll definitely admitted to ward..so its kinda miracle when she came home that evening..but with shaky hands n tired coz of da nab..so we asked what happen..bcoz d doctor dat treated her dat evening is new n bcoz fida is such a-sweet-persuasive-talk-lil-gal, da doctor didnt admit her to ward but made her promise dat if she had another attack within 24 hours, came back..uhuh! 5.30am n she came to my room n ask my roomie to rub her back coz she cudnt breath..i heard but didnt help coz my dose of ubat selsema not worn out yet..so sorry fida darlink..so by 7 am, adah already in her car to send fida to HUKM..da sound of her rongkai(blocked breathing coz of mukus on ur lungs) is soooo loud..seriously..n scary too..
so..after listening to our mama halini's lil talk, we headed home straight away to pack up fida's things..as we expected she's admitted to ward..kpada sesiapa yg nk dtg melawat..silala..tingkat 6..wad 4 (we've been to wad 1,2,3,6 n HGW, high deficiency ward but we've neva been in dis ward 4 b4..sgt bersih..thanx fida bgi kami mlawat wad baru..hehe) katil num 19..when we arrived, she still in her t-shirt n jeans..meaning dat da doctor juz done wid her emergency unit(where adah drop her in dis morning) n hey, she looks alive..tak pucat pn..hmm dats a good sign isnt it??..haaa..da pic above, nmpak cam org nk bunuh diri kn..hehehe takla..doter amek darah fida kt situ..in ur veins..da deoxygenated blood..as we know da veins wud be smaller than the artery..n still remmber fida said once, dat one of da factors dat she despise being hospitalize is the doctors n nurses keep taking her blood from evrywhere..lengan, wrist..atas tgn..haiizzz klu tgk parut2 pn buleh thu cane deritanyeee..

ha..on da way back sempatlh posing cket..its a big mirror in front of da toilet..da last time we were here (b4 raya puasa kot, tak ingt sgt) da toilet is still under construction..but nw, its done oredy..another pose..hehehe..emm all in all..fida ku sayang..cepatlah sembuh..keje bnyak ni..n we'll miss u a lot..cemara is as quite as da graveyard without u n my roomie..hilang seri cemara ni fida..no laughter no nothing..i admire fida for one thing, her perserverence, determination..previously,even though admitted to ward for quite a while, failed few tests, her result is still impressive..good job gal! i noe u can go thru dis again dis time..be strong dear..n we love u always...

nota kaki: hargai nikmat sihat sebelum sakit...

my 2 cents...

wokeh..last nite a person post dis quest to me.."klau org tu sanggup 'pergi' dengan ketanye cane?" hmmm..seriously da first thing dat comes to my mind was..they're crazy! once i hve a mat rempit fren who said da same thing..rela mati di tangn sendiri dari menanggung tekann hidup..itu lagila biolnye..can anybody tell me who lives without a prob??even kucin pn ade prob sndiri taw..to obey ur master n being loved n given privilages or disobey to fulfill their personal needs n being beaten..hua3 dh ni kwn ngan kaki keta pn utarakn perkara yg sama..Gosh! what a coincidence..

here's my 2 cents wid conscious (i didnt really concsious wid my answer last nite coz bit blurr..baru pas mkn ubat selsema yg diwarningkn akn sbbkn ngantuk..but one thing seme yg dijwbkn mlm tdi adalh jwpn yg amat jujur dri hati sbb im very drowsy dat time..write from da heartla org kate..emm, bru pas mkn gak skrg ni tpi tade kesan sgt agi)..so..

"it is possible that you dislike a thing which is good for you, and that you love a thing which is bad for you. But God knows what's best for us, and we did not.." (Surah Al-Baqarah - 216)

Guess dat verse already stated lots of things bout life..life is an exam..exam starts when we're born n berakhir bila tiba saat kita nazak..invigilators? Raqib di bahu knn dn 'atid di bahu kiri..reporting everything to be judged by The Greatest Creater on da day when nothing can be done to change our past, where resentment doesnt count anymore..
hati kita ni pelik kan..amenda yg kite tokley wat..menda tula yg kte nk..kte thu menda tu bhya tpi nk jugak bwat..tp tape jgn salahkn diri sbb 4 me dats normal n if u dun feel dat, then u're not normal.nobody's perfect folks..
wokeh..cik sara dh lari dari topik ni..hehe..okkay..if a fireman died to save a lil gal in a burning house, dats cool..but if a mat rempit died out of an accident..hmm ppl wud say dat he deserve it..its quite da same laa..its not a sweet way to die like dat..hmm what if its a really bad car crashed n ppl cant put ur body back together??nope..i dun wanna dat to happen..plez..i owez pray dat i'll go gentle into dat 'goodnite'..kematian itu ibarat kulit kita disiat2 oleh seribu pedang..cukup sakit dh tu kn..nk sakit cane lgi..?? i dunno bout u guys but me, i'd rather lying on my bed wid sumone by my side reminding me to rmmber HIM always..anything cud happen on dat nick of time..isnt dat scary???end up in An-Narr coz we answered da devils when we're dying..

but question is owez juz a question..i noe dat..coz sometimes we love to wonder..what if....what if....n dis is juz my answer..my perception..it maybe wrong to u..im sorry..

in a moment back there i feel like crying..imagining..huh..cik sara yg shuke fikir bukan2..of coz, i owez pray da best 4 every ppl around me..those dat i care especially..i cant bear losing anymore..enough is enough..dealing wid stress wud owez made us think bout silly2 things..plez juz let it be on ur thoughts..dun get it done practically okkay..timbangilah neraca akal dn nafsu..

Then We put you on the (right) Way of Religion: so follow thou that (Way), and follow not the desires of those who know not (Al Jathiyah:18)

tak faham??okkayla..translation version..

“Kemudian Kami jadikan kamu berada di atas suatu syariat (peraturan) dari urusan (agama itu), maka ikutilah syariat itu dan janganlah kamu ikuti hawa nafsu orang-orang yang tidak mengetahui.”
(al-Jaatsiyah: 18)

we embrace Islam..make it as a way of living..yeah,live ur life to the fullest..coz we live once only, yet plez remmber ur guidance n limit..kejarlah cita2..trosknlh minat coz dat wud make us lively, to do things dat we love to do..ease our tense..dats a great way to be happy wid ourselves..i wont deny dat..n happiness is contagious..sadness as well..im happy if ppl around me is happy..tpi klu dok tgh2 org2 tension..tak pasal2 nk rasa tension jugak..huhuhu..some frenz say i care too much till i'll owez hurting myself care for evrybody else but me..but i think dats wrong..dats juz thing dat i love to do..juz a part of me..jadik minah kepoh n sibuk tlg jgakn kain org..hahaha..gedikss kn..tapelaa..

nota kaki: berpada2 dlm segalanye..ikut mata buta..ikut hati mati..ikut rasa binasa..ikut bantal??huuuu tidoqqq..ubat selsema dh mula bgi kesanzz ZzzZZzz.........

HADIAH MALAM JUMAAT


Pada suatu malam bertepatan malam Jumaat Salih Al Mazi pergi ke
Masjid jamik untuk mengerjakan solat subuh. Kebiasaannya ia berangkat
Awal sebelum masuk waktu subuh dan melalui sebuah pekuburan. Di situ
Salih Duduk sekejap sambil membaca apa-apa yang boleh mendatangkan pahala bagi
ahli kubur memandangkan waktu subuh masih lama lagi.

Tiba-tiba dia tertidur dan bermimpi melihat ahli-ahli kubur keluar beramai-ramai dari kubur
masing-masing. Mereka duduk dalam kumpulan-kumpulan sambil
berbual-bual sesama mereka.
Al Mazy ternampak seorang pemuda ahli kubur
memakai baju kotor serta tidak berkumpul dengatn ahli-ahli kubur yang
lain. Dia duduk seorang diri di tepi kuburnya dengan wajah murung, gelisah
kerana sedih.

Tidak berapa lama kemudian datang malaikat membawa beberapa talam
yang ditutup dengan saputangan. Seolah-olah seperti cahaya yang
gemerlapan. Malaikat mendatangi para ahli kubur dengan membawa
talam-talam itu, tiap seorang mengambil satu talam dan dibawanya masuk ke dalam
kuburnya. Semua ahli kubur mendapat satu talam seorang sehingga tinggallah si
pemuda yang kelihatan sedih itu seorang diri tidak mendapat apa-apa.
Dengan perasaan yang sedih dan duka dia bangun dan masuk semula ke dalam
kuburnya. Tapi sebelum dia masuk Al Mazy yang bermimpi segera menahannya
untuk bertanyakan keadaannya.

"Wahai hamba Allah ! Aku lihat engkau
terlalu sedih mengapa ?" tanya Salih Al Mazy.

"Wahai Salih, adakah
engkau lihat talam-talam yang dibawa masuk oleh malaikat sebentar tadi?"
tanya pemuda itu.

"Ya aku melihatnya. Tapi apa benda di dalam talam-talam
itu?" tanya Al Mazy lagi.

Si pemuda menerangkan bahwa talam-talam itu berisi
hadiah orang-orang yang masih hidup untuk orang-orang yang sudah mati
yang terdiri dari pahala sedekah, bacaan ayat-ayat suci Al Quran dan
doa. Hadiah-hadiah itu selalunya datang setiap malam Jumaat atau pada hari
Jumaat. Si pemuda kemudian menerangkan tentang dirinya dengan panjang lebar..
Katanya dia ada seorang ibu yang masih hidup di alam dunia bahkan telah
berkahwin dengan suami baru.Akibatnya dia lupa untuk bersedekah untuk
anaknya yang sudah meninggal dunia sehingga tidak ada lagi orang yang
mengingati si pemuda.
Maka sedihlah si pemuda setiap malam dan hari jumaat apabila
melihat orang-orang lain menerima hadiah sedangkan dia seorang tidak
menerimanya. Al-Mazy sangat kasihan mendengarkan cerita si pemuda. lalu
ia bertanya nama dan alamat ibunya ia dapat menyampaikan keadaan anaknya.
Si pemuda menerangkan sifat2 ibunya.
Kemudian Al Maizy terjaga. Pada sebelah paginya Al Maizy terus pergi mencari alamat ibu pemuda tersebut. Setelah mencari kesana kemari beliaupun berjumpa ibu si pemuda
tersebut lantas menceritakan perihal mimpinya. Ibunya menangis mendengar
keterangan Al maizy mengenai nasib anaknya yang merana di alam barzah.

Kemudian ia berkata :"Wahai Salih ! Memang betul dia adalah anakku.
Dialah belahan hatiku, dia keluar dari dalam perutku. Dia membesar dengan minum
susu dari dadaku dan ribaanku inilah tempat dia berbaring dan tidur
ketika kecilnya."

Al Maizy turut sedih melihat keadaan ibu yang meratap dan menangis
penuh penyesalan kerna tidak ingat untuk mendoakan anaknya selama
ini.

"Kalau begitu saya mohon minta diri dahulu." kata Al maizy lalu bangun
meninggalkan wanita tersebut. Tatkala dia cuba untuk melangkah si
ibu menahannya agar jangan pulang dahulu.Dia masuk kedalam biliknya
lalu keluar dengan membawa wang sebanyak seribu dirham.

"Wahai Salih,
ambil wang ini dan sedekahkanlah untuk anakku, cahaya mataku. Insya Allah aku
tidak akan melupakannya untuk berdoa dan bersedekah untukya selama aku
masih hidup."

Salih Al Maizy mengambil wang itu disedekahkannya kepada fakir
miskin sehingga tidak sesenpun dari seribu dirham itu yang tinggal.
Dilakukannya semua itu sebagai memenuhi amanah yang diberi kepadanya
oleh ibu pemuda tersebut.
Pada suatu malam Jumaat di belakang selepas itu, Al Maizy
Berangkat ke masjid jamik untuk solat jamaah. Dalam perjalanan
sebagaimana Biasa ia singgah di perkuburan. Di situlah ia terlena sekejap dan
bermimpi melihat ahli-ahli kubur keluar dari kubur masing2. Si pemuda yang dulnya
kelihatan sedih seorang diri kini keluar bersama-sama dengan memakai
pakaian putih yang cantik serta mukanya kelihatan sangat gumbira.

Pemuda tersebut mendekati Salih Al Maizy se raya berkata : "Wahai tuan Salih,
aku ucapkan terima kasih kepadamu. Semoga Allah membalas kebaikanmu itu. "

"Hadiah dari ibuku telah ku terima pada hari jumaat." katanya lagi.

"Eh,
Engkau boleh mengetahui hari Jumaat ?" tanya Al Maizy.

"Ya, Tahu." "Apa
tandanya?"

"Jika burung-burung di udara berkicau dan berkata

"Selamat
selamat pada hari yang baik ini, yakni hari Jumaat."

Salih Al Maizy
terjaga dari tidurnya.Ia cuba mengingati mimpinya dan merasa gumbira kerana
sipemuda telah mendapat rahmat dari Allah disebabkan sedekah dan doa
dari ibunya.
(Petikan kisah Wali-Wali Allah (2) terbitan syarikat Nurulhas).


kepada yg sudah kehilangn..ingtlh yg tersayng sntiasa..mmg mlm jumaat bnyak cte besh..gadis melayulah puaka niang rapik lah rona roni makaronilah..klau buleh ingt rancangn2 tu jgn sesekali u dare to say u forgot utk bacakn yaasin setiap mlm jumaat..hadiahkn bacaan Quran setiap hari bwat mreka..berdoalh di setiap akhir solat..ingtlah..doa anak2 yg soleh, anak2 solehah akn diterima oleh Allah..percayalah..mereka tak mintak ditangisi tak mintak diidolasikan..tak mintak diceritakn kebaikn mreka kpd sape2..dh tade makne seme tu..tak mmbantu ape2 bwat mreka..yg pnting..yg perlu diingati selalu..hadiahknlah talam bergemerlapan itu bwat mreka..hiasi peribadi pelihara akhlak jaga aurat..mreka masih akn diseksa dgn kelakuan kita..nauzubillah utk perlakukn sebegitu..
we dun need to talk bout them 24/7 to show dat we remmber them..smtimes it hurts so much to do dat..or even hear ppl talk bout dat..it hurts more to hear ppl talking bout their loved ones while ours is not anymore wid us..to think of all da many things we wish we cud do wid them..its damn hurt..but God had HIS reasons in evrything..yeah they're gone but memories remain..all in all, juz rmmber if HE brought us to it, HE'll help us thru it..have faith..be strong..

nota kaki: im sorry if my words wud offend anybody..peringatn bwat seme dn diriku yg kerdil ini juga..yg mudah terleka..edisi emo..huhuhu..cant help but missing cant help but crying..AL-Fatihah bwat mereka2 disana...


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